I thought I was ready to look for a job. I figured that little Gbear is over a year old now, but apparently my heart is rebelling.
Let me back it up a bit. I've mentioned before that I was beginning to look for jobs. I submitted my resume to one and never heard anything (there was no contact info other than an email, so I couldn't call to inquire) It had been a part time position, but a little something that would get me out of the house, make a little extra money, and really help build my resume (which other than school is pretty pathetic) Then a friend of a friend mentioned a job opening their friend had at a law firm. Great! I contacted her, she seemed interested. She reviewed my resume and offered me an interview.
Am I actually going to get a job? Do I really need to ramp up my daycare search? I started trying to figure out who could watch little Gbear just for the interview (which made me realize the sad situation of my amount of friends in the area) *scratch that* I have quite a few friends, but very few I'd trust with Gbear. If I was back home, I would have a list of at least 10 people I could count on in a pinch. Here, I have one, but I don't like to take advantage of her. (and she has work that day so it's not even an option)
So, I've come to two conclusions. 1) I really need to make some friends. Preferably ones with children. All of my friends here are not at that stage. And 2) If I'm stressing this much about leaving Gman for 1 hour, I'm so not ready to go to work and leave him FULL TIME (oh I forgot to mention that haha, this job is full time)
In my freak out I called my dad. He always knows the right thing to say. You never get these years back, so think really hard if this particular job is worth it. You're a smart girl; you'll find a job when you're ready.
Hmm. Full time job at just above minimum wage with no real room for growth. I think I have my answer.
Here's hoping it's the right choice.